A/N: Khuntoria just celebrated their 300th day a few days ago, so I was inspired to write a short story about them. It really amuses me how Vic was kind of frustrated and crazy jealous of Khun’s recent CF. It just shows how deeply she feels for him to be bothered by that kiss. And that makes my Khuntoria heart do some acrobatics in sheer glee. I’m glad that Vic is kind of comfortable in showing her true feelings for Khun now. I always worried in the past that Khun is the more transparent one in the relationship. He has always shown how he can easily get jealous and all. Now, it’s Vic’s turn. Can someone give them a moment for some serious smoochin’?
What? In private, of course.
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It’s not that he hasn’t thought about doing it before. Or ever dared to.
If he were to be more honest with himself, he’d say that it’s the only thing he can think about in the past few months.
Kissing her, that is.
Sure, they had more experience in skinship than most couples in the show. It had always been easy for them to hold hands, lean on each other’s shoulder, carry her, touch her face, lightly tap her thigh, and hug on a few occassions, but it had always been a struggle to initiate that kind of intimacy with her.
Junsu and Taec have been enjoying calling him a wuss ever since they sensed his growing frustration about..well, his feelings and that inexplicable need to touch her lips. Seulong told him once, in one of their very rare drinking sprees, to grow some balls and just do it.
Sometimes, he can sense it in her too. After letting her watch that infamous scene in his CF, he’s been having some feelings that she was more jealous than she let on. Sometimes he can see that certain fire in her eyes that she wants it as much as he does, and she’s only waiting for him to make the first move.
But something big is holding him back, holding both of them back, from really doing it.
Maybe he is terrified of the possibility that she will kick his ass all the way to Pattaya once he attempts to get his way with her.
Maybe they are both too cautious of the repercussions it might cause.
Or maybe it’s that little selfish emotion that he feels whenever he thinks that he must share that moment with the rest of the world, with several cameras hovering over them.
He doesn’t want to share that little privacy, that little piece of happiness with everyone. He doesn’t want everyone to see how her eyes would close as he gets near, how she would respond to his touch…how beautiful and soft she would look, and if his ears would turn a very deep shade of red.
He wants every little detail to be only seen in his or her memory. He wants all of her in that moment, not spoil it with the consideration of the beautiful angles in which they should turn their heads just for people to get a closer look.
He wants to wait for the right time, for the perfect moment when he gets to pour his heart out in a kiss and tell her how much she means to him. Until then, he vows to not let his urges and feelings overpower his being.
But watching Victoria in her deep slumber on the plane back to Seoul, head rested on his left shoulder, with furrowed brows and an adorable pout, he feels his resolve instantly weaken at the sight of her- at the beautiful sight of her.
She mumbles something incoherent and her brows furrow some more. Nichkhun suppresses the urge to chuckle. Even in her sleep, she never fails to amuse him. It’s just one of the hundred reasons why he’s so drawn to her.
He reaches out and smoothens her brows, afraid that she is having a bad dream again.
Victoria wakes up a few heartbeats later, flutters her eyes and gives him an unsteady gaze and lets out a slurred hey.
He looks at her and feels his insides soar. He cannot, for the life of him, understand how someone can look that insanely beautiful upon waking up. It’s a face he wants to see for a long while and if possible, in his every waking moment in the not-so-distant future.
Victoria gives him a little smile, one that she always does whenever she catches him looking at her in that intense way of his.
“Were you having a bad dream again?” he asks worriedly. He knows how she’s prone to having nightmares in the last couple of months. She sends him a text message whenever she experiences one and they usually spend the night talking on the phone just to chase the bad dreams away. Sometimes he even sings her to sleep (which always makes her laugh at first) until he hears her soft snores on the other end of the line. He just thanks his lucky stars for not having to share a room with Chansung anymore or else he’ll never hear the end of it.
Victoria nods and frowns a bit. “It was about you.”
Nichkhun shoots her a puzzled look. “I’m giving you nightmares now?” he asks, chuckling. “Was I bad?”
“Very,” she answers, narrowing her eyes. “You were kissing three pretty girls in a CF this time.” She pouts at him.
He laughs at that and finds Victoria giving him a dirty glare. He throws his arms around her in the hope of appeasing her a little.
It doesn’t.
He holds her hand instead and entwines his fingers with hers, glad that there are no cameras nearby. The rest of the crew are either busy chatting or eating several seats away.
He smiles at the thought that she doesn’t attempt to take her hand away. Holding her like this has always been a pleasant moment for him.
“Feeling better?” he tentatively asks.
Victoria leans her head on his shoulder in response and gazes at their intertwined hands, looking somewhat pensive.
“I know you have to make money and all but it’s just so hard to understand.” She confesses with downcast eyes. “And I don’t even know why I am jealous.”
There goes the all too familiar stirrings in Nichkhun’s heart again. How many times have they been confused in the past? He totally lost count, to be honest. They have blurred the lines one too many times, and he really doesn’t know how to draw a clear line between reality and make-believe anymore. Or if he ever has a plan to get out of this confusion. Or if he still claims to be confused like he was a couple of months back.
Because if there’s anything that his heart has been wanting to tell him all this time, it is the fact that what he feels for her is as real and obvious as the sun rising in the east. And he hopes, God he hopes, that Victoria sees it too.
“You shouldn’t be.” He tells her in a voice too earnest for a conversation in a plane.
“You’re right. I mean that’s work. And this,” she motions with her hands “is also work. Really. I shouldn’t be. God, what was I thinking?” she asks in utter frustration.
Nichkhun draws her near instead. He lifts her chin just so she can look at him in the eye and make her understand something.
“Stop stressing over one silly thing because…” he pauses as he tries to inhale some air to calm himself. “I’m all yours. You ought to know that.” He looks at her straightly, quite worried how she’ll react this time.
Victoria just opens and closes her mouth, seemingly at a loss for words.
“Besides, do you have any idea about what I plan to do right after we leave the show?” He asks her in a whisper as he draws his face near hers. He doesn’t even realize how vulnerable he looked at that instant, laying out his heart for her to take.
“W-What?” she stammers, already flustered by the intensity of his gaze.
“I’m going to kiss you all day,” he begins. “Until I make you realize what you mean to me. Until I make your uncertainties go away, and make you understand that there will never be no one else.”
That there can never be no one else, he says to himself. His chest feels like it’s ready to burst at any moment.
It is only several moments later when he notices Victoria tighten her hold on his hand.
“I..” she falters. “You know how much I hate broken promises, right?” she tells him with a little smile, her eyes sparkling evocatively.
Nichkhun squeezes her hand back.
“I have no intention of breaking it anyway.” he responds, his eyes blazing with mischief and excitement.
They both laugh as he lets their heads touch, basking in the moment.
Countdowns will never be the same again.
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Credits to khuntorialurve.tumblr.com for the picture above. Kamsahamnida!
